Friendship is supposed to be easy....

Friendship is supposed to be easy.  Friends are supposed to be the people who have your back, who you can tell your secrets to, who genuinely care about you.  For me, friendship seems to be hard to come by.  I've never been one to have a giant group of friends.  I was lucky to have 1 best friend at a time.  I was ok with that!  I mean, friends are supposed to be quality, not quantity, right?  I have this "friend" and honestly, it has just become too much work to be friends.  I feel I have to take all of the first steps.  Sure we have done plenty of stuff together, but I have always had to make the plans, make the decisions, initiate everything.  A few months ago, I just silently lost it.  I felt everything I did or suggested she was fighting me over.  I just stepped back.  I've never felt she was the friend to me that I tried to be to her.  I would want to share semi-private conversations or information with her.  She was always reserved, as if she didn't trust me.  I've been told I "shoot from the hip" that I am what you see, and that's what you get.  Everything with her is always so secretive, or at least it is towards me.  Then, recently I invited her to meet up when I was pretty sure we both had free time.  I was met with "oh, I can't."  I let it go until I see her out, alone, seemingly doing nothing.  I guess the "I can't" was more of "I don't want to."  I really wish I could get back what I give.  I'm not sure it's ever in the cards for me.

Online shopping is amazing!

Ok, I am really not from the stone age.  I have shopped online for years.  Seriously, I was probably one of the first who happily plugged my credit card into the internet and let stuff show up on my door.  So yes, I have shopped for years online, but what I mean now is how amazing it is that more and more big box retailers are getting in on the act!  Does it make me sound lazy to order all my crap online?  Well, let's break it down:  I can shop in my pj's.  I can shop with my coffee in hand (yeah, I know, I can do that in store too....work with me) I can shop at the odd hours of the day or night when stores may be closed.  I can shop when I am in places in public, just to kill time.  Let me elaborate on that last one.  When we were at Disneyland a couple of months ago, it wasn't crazy busy, but yeah, we had to stand in line.  While standing in line for Big Thunder Mountain Railroad, I was on Amazon and Boom!  I ordered L some new shoes!  This morning I was sitting at my kids' school, waiting for the award ceremony to start and I am again on Amazon, shopping for all of our household necessities.  Ok, I do actually shop other places than just Amazon.  In fact, that is the post of this post, it was just that those two instances were Amazon.  I digress...    This week I have placed online orders with both Costco and Target, through Google Express!  Woot!  With Costco, I'm not talking about the stuff you find on their regular website, but my groceries!  You mean I don't have to go into our local Costco if I don't want to, but I still get what I need?  YES!  I detest our Costco.  It's too busy, it's too small, and why do people have to bring their entire family and then just gang around the sample stands?  Get your random crap and move!  Ok, no, I can't get my fresh groceries from Google Express Costco, but I can get the heavy stuff that I now don't have to lug home ;)  It was $4.99 for the service fee.  Worth it?  You bet your sweet ass it was!  Same with Target.  It's not like I am going to order my Eggo Waffles from Google Express Target, but I did order all the household stuff.  And would I pay to use the service again?  Yup.  Again, do I sound lazy to order my necessities online?  No, I don't think so!  Let's look at it this way, I don't get everything I need in one store.  I go to this store, then that store, then this other one over here, and oh, don't forget that one, too!  Nothing is really all that close in our town.  There's a lot of traffic, and sitting in traffic plus driving to this and that store means you are using gas.  Gas isn't cheap!  It's cheaper than it has been in a very long time, but still, they aren't just handing it out!  Life is busy.  I love the idea of ordering what I need and then knowing it will come to me in a day or so.  Also, there's not going to be the impulse buying online that I would do in the store!  So, is it worth it?  To me, oh yeah!